Right now I am living vicariously through other cyclists who are on cross-country adventures. I am cheering them on, wanting all to make it no matter how long it takes, and I want to hear about every adventure all the way.
I will go when it is my time, which is not now. I have two animals that need to pass away first, and although one will probably get put down within the month, the other is not as close to that place, and except for her blindness, she still has the enthusiasm and energy of a puppy at 14+ years. She has a few years to go.
But as I look forward to going, I am wondering if I will ever look back. Will I sublet my apartment or just sell everything I own and leave Los Angeles for good. Will I effectively make myself homeless for a greater adventure than sitting still in a mundane job? Is it even possible to survive off the bike? I wonder if I will be looking for a new place to start over. The reality is that I think I would at least have to put some things in storage. I haven't checked into that. If I didn't sublet, however, and if I did put things in storage, there would be no turning back once I got onto the bike.
Unlike most cyclists who do their journey and return home, I don't really feel I have anything holding me in California anymore. What I came out here for (screenwriting) isn't really part of my life now, and although I love the state, there is definitely an emptiness here, a void that I can't fill. So I know I need to go. I need to start over, start a new life, a life of adventure.
In the grand scheme of things, I really don't know how I would live for an extended period on the bike, and I'd like to have an extended period. I get tiny amounts of residual money through ebook sales, but can also go for weeks without a single sale. I know that whatever computer I take, I can connect to the internet via various free wireless places, including a library or most Starbucks, and a multi-year prepaid subscription to skype would enable me to make all the long distance calls I need whenever I have wireless. Still, I think I would want to have a mobile phone... but how would I pay for it with an extended period on the road? All these things need to be carefully planned out.
I'm looking into buying a tent and a sleeping bag and other basic camping gear. I have plenty of time to save up for it and to have it all ready to go for when I do get on the bike and begin the trek eastward. I'm toying more with the idea of towing a small trailer. rather than panniers. That will also enable me to take my standing bike pump.
I want to spend some time at the Bicycle Kitchen to learn more about bike maintenance and becoming my own mechanic for more than just changing tires or adjusting screws. I'll need to know as much as I can if I'm going out on the road for an extended length of time for which there is no set return date.
I'm just musing.